life goes by

While I was sitting here talking to my best friend about things we did when we were little it was a little hard. My brother is growing up so quickly with his teenage attitude and lately hasn't been picking up after himself like a typical teenager does. It's kinda crazy how one minute everything is one way and in a blink of an eye you're starting your own life sometimes with the same friends sometimes with new ones. I have been blessed with being able to keep my two best friends for the majority of my life. Joannie is like a sister I never had and her family pretty much took me in. With her brother, Bud, dead it changes everything. I don't take life granted anymore and I try to live it to the fullest. I do admit there are times when I feel like doing something completely wild and crazy but it's something to do. I might be taking a trip to vegas with Joannie. While I'm there I have no intentions on being well behaved. Doing something crazy might not be a bad ideal although I would have my other best friend, Kaulen, trying to talk me out of it. Still, it's something to do. I look at what I've done and I see for the most part I haven't done anything too off the wall. I don't like to party so I don't. I don't believe in doing drugs so I won't. I still need to do something that's crazy. I'm thinking maybe going parasailing and bungee jumping off a cliff. Maybe even cliff diving I can get past the whole heights and under water thing in order to do something completely crazy. Hmmmm I'll go have a midlife crisis at the age of 20 for awhile and will come back with a plan.